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03:49pm 01/09/2005
 
mood: bleh.
Yeah. . . so over the course of the last time I posted a lot has gone on. . .

Had a few shows with the Root Mechanical. . . and they've been tight yo. . . we're playing tomorrow with Escape From Earth, Ardent Flames, The Eleventh Day. . . and Gasket. . . I think. . . anyways. . . yeah. . . gonna be a big one. . . the last couple shows had been pretty rockin' too. . . especially headlining the Clearwater and having a decent crowd! EVERYONE was into it. . . and we just flat out tore it up. . . plus. . . this band called Dr. Manhattan. . . I think they are awesome. . . good guys, good band. . . not the kinda music you'd expect to be paired with metal, but it does the trick cuz I can dance to it. . . you can't really dance to a lot of the crap festering in the scene nowadays. . . it's all about mascara, girls pants, looking emo, playing metal with "hardcore breakdowns". . . or "metalcore". . . it's kinda lame. . . I remember years ago when the scene actually had some diversity to it. . . punk bands and metal bands and ska bands and hardcore bands all playing together and actually getting along and talking to each other. . . now it's all about black hair and what fucking band t-shirt you have on. . . or what kind of pants. . . or granny shoes. . . bleh bleh bleh. . . every band in the scene is trying to be As I Lay Dying. . . or Trivium. . . or a combination of the two. . . yet bands that kids liked last year alllll suck now. . . biggest example is Avenged Sevenfold. . .

Now I like the new song I keep hearing and I'm interested in getting the cd. . . it's still the same phenomenal riff writing and drumlines that made their last two CD's awesome. . . "oh M. Shadows doesn't scream at all". . . oh boohoo. . . kids are acting like the music has totally changed. . . it's not like the Korn transition of Life is Peachy to Follow the Leader. . . or Limp Bizkit's transmorfication from Three Dollar Bill to Significant Other. . .

As for Asinine Dying, I was very unimpressed from what I heard on the new CD. . . it's basically Frail Words Collapse, only with a little more singing and different song titles. . . plus I saw them at Ozzfest and they weren't as "amazing" as some people made them out to be. . .

I guess nobody likes things to be different. . . but all the teenagers who make up today's scene will be nudged out by some different kind of music in a few years. . . nobody will care. . .

The way the scene is nowadays with this power tae bo leg kick "hardcore dancing" which is so stupid. . . makes me clamor for the skinheads to come back and get circle pits going. . . as much as the skinheads fucked everything up. . . destroyed everything. . . they would at least mosh. . . not fag dance in the pit. . . bleh. . .

Maybe I'm just old. . . things changed now I'm bitter about everything. . . but ya know. . . it's kinda disheartening when kids you were in a band with or friends with play a show with you then refuse to talk to you afterward because of your music style. . . I shouldn't take it so hard. . . but I remember when the scene had unity. . .

But it's like John said about bands that think we are dicks. . . "we're playing bigger places, they're not. . . "

So yeah. . . we've got the Clearwater tomorrow night. . . Penny Road Pub in a couple weeks, and the Roller Rink a couple weeks after that. . . then we might be dropping off a bit with shows to write a lotta new material and stuff like that. . .

Speaking of new material. . . I am REALLY diggin' the new Every Time I Die CD. . . it's a lot less "metalcore" a little more rock and roll. . . still heavy, still a kick in the face, it's Every Time I Die. . . they rock. . .

So if people come up to me and say "So I heard Cheney is moving outta yer house". . . he ain't moving. . . he's been given an ultimatum to pack up his shit and get the hell out. . . I don't know when it'll be enforced. . . but the fucker stole all of my porn. . . ALLLLL of my PORN. . . well. . . my best bud John still has one of them, but he's probly gonna be borrowing it until I'm outta my house. . .

Anyway. . . he's gonna be on his way out. . . he didn't get "fired" from his job, he quit. . . and instead of paying rent (which my folks are extremely lenient on) he went out and bought a guitar. . . with his last paycheck. . . and instead of looking for a new job, he goes out and gets trashed. . .

But, we're the assholes. . . funny, huh?

If you looked up delusional in the dictionary you'd find a couple familiar faces. . .

Upon doing this post at Bert's house. . . and this being the first one in a long while. . . it made me realize there are a couple people I kinda miss talking to. . . that and sometimes with Root Mechanical I talk of the Campsite demise. . . and it still kinda sucks. . . I hate thinking of the "coulda beens". . . but ya know. . . live with it. . . being in a band with Zack was amazing fun. . . and Joe's stuff is STILL in Casey's garage. . . hahaha. . . but yeah. . . apparently Wilson just went AWOL according to Lee and John. . . who worked and were good friends with him at one point. . . but anyway. . .

I'm glad with where I went after Campsite, and it's good to know at least where ONE of my former bandmates is currently at. . . Zack, if you read this, if and WHEN are ya playin' a show?

Yeah. . . I think I said enough of what I wanted to say. . .
 
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Ozzfest and such.   
06:25pm 01/08/2005
 
mood: tired
So I went to Ozzfest at the Tweeter. . . and let me say. . . I'm glad I went for free. . .

Nick, Abt, Abt's new girlfriend and me all went. . . and Nick and me went off on our own. . . and that was fun. . .

We got there. . . I saw the first couple bands. . . and It Dies Today was a good time. . . then I needed a bathroom because I had a couple white russians the night before and they didn't bode too well for me. . . especially when I slammed McDonald's afterward. . . and had a powerbar on the way there. . .

So I rocketed some yoohoo outta my ass and needed some aqua and was ready to go again. . .

Yeah. . . Ozzfest sucked for about three hours. . . Warped Tour is better because at least there are other bnads playing instead of this "metalcore" stuff that they've got going on. . . whatever happened to the traditional metal stuff? It's all about. . . fag dancing in the pit now. . . traditional moshing is nonexistant. . . what happened?

Anyways. . . I forgot some of the other bands that were playing. . . The Haunted was good fun. . . but Nick and me decided to parouse around the Tweeter. . . searching for shade. . . which every single inch of it was occupied. . . yeah. . .

We then got into the PS2 tent for as long as we could. . . I think As I Lay Dying was playing while we were leaving the thing. . . and they are alright. . . their drummer has some long hair and he whips it around when he's playing. . . other than that. . . I don't see too much thrill of As I Lay Dying. . . I used to like them. . . but not so much anymore. . . after them was Killswitch. . . I alrady saw Killswitch. . . they are enjoyable. . . but Nick and me wanted to get water. . . and we found they dislodged a sprinkler system in one of the gates. . . we stood there for about 45 minutes. . . with some dude who wanted to see some boobs. . . that dude was the shit. . .

Every girl who walked by he would shout "SHOW ME YOUR BOOBS! HELP A BROTHA OUT!". . . he was awesome. . . until some skinheads came along and told him that they'd "kick his fucking twat motherfucking ass". . . and some other feminist girl was like "Shut the fuck up!". . . I was like. . . wasn't ozzfest all about tits and metal years and years ago? I kept running into him and asking if he'd seen any other boobs and was like "Yeah! I saw about 8 pairs of 'em now!" and I laughed. . . he said that "migratin' was the best thing he coulda done!". . .

Rob Zombie put on a hell of a show too. . . he should stick to doing stuff like that and not making shitty movies. . . cuz I saw that Devil's Rejects movie and thought it shoulda been renamed The Devil's Retards. . .

Then Iron Maiden came on.

Iron Maiden rocked. Iron Maiden ROCKED.

Yeah.

Black Label Society sucked. It was just Zack Wylde playing guitar. . . he's only popular because he was Ozzy's guitar player and if Randy Rhoads never died, nobody would know or care who Zack Wylde is. . .

Although he was hilarious in that Aqua Teen episode. . . I'll give him that. . .

Shadows Fall sounded good even though I slept through them. . . I didn't care for them. . . probly because they sounded like the 10 other bands I seen before them. . . I didn't even wanna see Mudvayne. . . but Maiden man. . .

While Mudvayne was on I found Nick after he left and he was trying to get us a ride home so we didn't have to stay for Sabbath. . . cuz we were super sunburned, exhausted, and frustrated. . .

Yeah. . . I'd say my first Ozzfest experience is probly gonna be my last. . . I know why I didn't go last year. . . or the year before. . . or the year before. . . but I probly shoulda wanted to go 5 years ago back when Ozzfest was more about the metal than about the money. . .

I just find it funny when these singers of bands are like "yeah, you guys have the most energy all the time!". . . knowing he/she doesn't mean it. . . yer just getting the crowd on yer side. . . "HELL YEAH BOZEMAN, MONTANA YOU HAVE HAD THE MOST ENERGY ON THIS DAMN TOUR! FUCK FUCKETTY FUCKIN' ROCK!". . . yeah. . .

So I must say for the music my first Ozzfest was kinda lame. . . but the walking around and such made it a bit better. . . too bad everything was horribly overpriced. . . who would pay 35 bucks for a concert tee?

Lotsa people. . . I didn't though. . .

Anyways. . . Ozzfest isn't all it's cracked up to be and I'm glad I went for free cuz I wouldn't dish out money for that. . . unless they had a couple more stages for breathing room. . . cuz it sucks to fight your way to the front of second stage to see your favorite band play for only 20 minutes. . . it really does. . .

Anyways. . . yeah. . . Root Mechanical has been going good. . . for those of you who still read my LJ we've got four shows coming up. . . here they are. . .

August 12th - Just For Fun roller rink in McHenry

We're playing with Staley's band, who still has Little Emling singing. . .

August 17th - Clearwater

Don't know who we're playing with. . . but it should be interesting

August 26th - WARP Skatepark

We're playing with bands with trendy metalcore names. . . don't remember any of them

September 16th - Penny Road Pub


Those are the shows upcoming kids. . . we're gonna be rockin' it out. . .

Later.
 
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My cock can walk me through the door   
09:05pm 31/05/2005
 
mood: good
Wow. . . I realized I don't go on the internet anymore. . . and that's just. . . sad?

Root Mechanical is going smooth. . . I guess July is when we're gonna start up the shows thing again. . . maybe have a couple "test" shows or something. . . get a feel. . . see what people say. . . then we're gonna start rollin' around in our own filth. . . and that'll be grand. . .

I got on an old school game kick and bought Final Fantasy 7. . . yeah. . . that's right. . . I'm rockin' out to an old Playstation game. . . and I love it. . .

Work's been work. . . my phone is near death on a stick. . . so I'm gonna get a new one this weekend. . .

I am currently listening to some phat fuckin' jamz yo. . . that new System of a Down CD. . . I highly enjoy it. . . especially the song where they sing about being the regulators of cool. . . yeah. . . Sammy and me bumped to Stankonia. . . Outkast in the hizouse. . . the other night. . . that was some fun stuff. . . Sammy wants to get me into some Lil' Jon and the East Side Boyz. . . that and you kids should check out Converge. . . for that deep down chaotic feeling. . . and Fall Out Boy. . . yeah. . . Fall Out Boy. . . their new CD is fun. . . lots of stuff is fun. . .

Yeah. . . ummm. . . there ain't much else to say. . . so. . . yeah. . .
 
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This goes out to. . .   
08:02am 12/05/2005
  Comment with your name and I'll write something about you.
° I'll tell you what song/BAND reminds me of you.
° Next, I'll tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
° Last, I'll try to name a single word that best describes you.
° Put this in your journal.

Zack. I got this from his journal. Yeah.

Root Mechanical has been solid. Been gettin' good with them double kicks.

Been watchin' a lot of Aqua Teen. It's my favoritist show.

Been talkin' like Meatwad a lot. I've gotten good at it. Kinda.

Rock.
 
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I've got a broken neck sense of mortality, it clashes with your blood lust sentimentality. . .   
02:11pm 05/05/2005
 
mood: enthralled
Being persistant paid off. . .

I am now drumming for Root Mechanical. . .

Bomb fuckin' diggity yo. . .

I guess since I learned all the songs pretty quick (still got a couple to work out). . . kept showing up. . . even after their other auditions flopped cuz of no shows. . . I was constant. . . cuz. . . that's how I am. . . but yeah. . . it's gonna rock. . . at least. . . I have high hopes for it rocking. . .

So hopefully by the end of the month. . . if everything has been goin' flowstyle. . . we'll be playin' shows. . . shows with gusto. . .

In other awesome related news. . . I'm going to a Cubs game on Sunday. . . mothers day yo. . . Casey's dad knew the right people. . . so she managed to get a couple pairs cuz she's awesome like that. . . so we are taking my mom. . . but telling her last night was the fun part. . . she was acting like a little kid on christmas she was so excited. . . haha. . . at first she didn't wanna believe us, but. . . yeah. . . she did. . . it was great. . .

So yeah. . . in other news. . . we got the brakes fixed on the car. . . and what they told Casey's mom was that the car had no brakes. . . and I was like. . . uhhh. . . I had been drove it to and from Harvard a few times after the anti-lock light came on. . . but we did put brake fluid in there. . . it barely helped, but it helped. . . so I drove a car without brakes and survived. . . my driving like a grandpa skills paid off. . .

So yeah. . . things have been rollin' the way of the Nallen lately. . . which happens once every so often. . . but when it does, it seems to come up with aces every time. . . and that's fine with me yo. . .

HOLLA!
 
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What's my age again?   
09:11pm 30/04/2005
 


You Are 22 Years Old



22





Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.





Holy fuckin' shit. . . I actually act my age. . . holla. . .
 
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08:32pm 30/04/2005
 

Your Birthdate: December 22

While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings.

You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion.

Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings.



Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma.

An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail.

You are very aware and intuitive.

You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension.


 
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Huzzah   
06:39am 28/04/2005
 
mood: good
Yeah. . . I don't update often. . . but when I do it's in full force or something. . .

So the word on me being in Root Mechanical is "almost". . . Lee, Dan and Adam are all for me being in the band. . . and jamming with them is pretty cool. . . plus they are awesome to hang with to boot. . . I'm really just gonna keep showing up. . . that'll do it. . . yeah. . . anyways. . . it's also good to know that Lee and John work with Wilson. . . and gave me the inside scoop on what he's been up to. . . and apparently the dude has decided he's gonna find a new job and do the photography thing. . . kinda. . . lettin' go of music. . . so now I'm REALLY pushing to be in the band. . .

I should really give my dad a call and let him know what I've been up to. . . oh yeah. . . haha. . . I spent over 400 bucks on drum cases. . . rendering me poor until next week. . . but. . . they are the SKB hardshells with the lifetime guarantee. . . now all I really gotta do is invest in probably another cymbal, a new snare stand, and sticks sticks sticks. . .

I still kinda feel bad about Joe's Zildjian K crash. . . and destroying it. . . well. . . not really destroying it but putting a crack in it. . . might have to cut him a check on that one. . . the dude let me rock out on that set for almost a year. . . it's only fair. . .

So Bennifer and me were just talkin'. . . bout the warped tour lineup rolling through chicago this year. . . and it fucking blows. . . all the bands that I was really hoping to see aren't gonna be on Chicago. . . or Milwaukee. . . only a few are gonna be. . . and that really fucking blows. . . it's false advertising. . . I think if you're going to put bands on that fucking list, it should be bands playing EVERY SINGLE DATE or at least CLOSE TO EVERY SINGLE DATE. . . god. . . makes me consider Ozzfest as another option. . . but Ozzfest has no variety. . . maybe a cooler kinda tour will roll through. . . bands that were exiled from Ozzfest and Warped Tour. . .

But that's only in my daydreams. . .

Anyways. . . Sammy comes back next week. . . holla for that. . .

I kinda forgot what else I should post. . . work's alright. . . I have to attend a mandatory class on alcohol sales Monday. . . from 10am-1pm. . . ugh. . . then I have to work the overnight. . . but Tuesday is Shadowrun. . . and possibly more jam sessions with the Root. . . haha. . . Toussaint was right on a bit of info. . . Kenny Berens tried out for them. . . Kenny Muthafuckin' Berens. . . I used to stare in awe when I watched him drum, but from what Steve-o and Cheney told me, he's kinda rusty. . . now I just do that to Jon Olson. . . sometimes I feel like I have to get a new pair of boxers after watching him tear a set to pieces. . .

Then again, people might tell me I'm that good, but I'll never believe them. . . or one day maybe I will. . . as my good friend John says to me "You have an uncanny sense of rhythm, you are a fucking rhythm machine". . . it's mostly in my genes. . . that and from playing lots of DDR and drumming on desks and masturbating. . . whaha. . .

Now if I must, I have to jet, I have a lady in waiting upstairs. . . deserving of hugs, kisses, and other assorted dorkiness I bring forth. . . but before I go, I said I'd put this in here, and do it if ya feel like it. . . other than that. . . You kids be sure to not get caught smoking in a non-smoking area. . .

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. If we've met, when and how did we meet?
4. What social event or place would you like to go to with me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. What would you do for a Klondike Bar?
15. Which cartoon character would I best represent?
16. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
 
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Put a happy cake in your tummy!   
07:26am 22/04/2005
 
mood: good
So I've been listenin' to this band called Folly. . . and I'm really starting to dig them. . . it's kinda insane stuff. . . it goes from being all hardcore to metal to ska. . . yes. . . ska. . . I have one person in mind when posting about them. . . and that's Mr. Zack. . . cuz he was always ridiculed when he wanted to add some ska into a Fat Sally song. . . so Zack, if ya wanna have an idea of what it MIGHT sound like if you were to throw ska into Fat Sally. . . check out the band Folly. . .

According to Kate, I live in a "shithole". . . funny. . . Meggie said that years ago. . . Ya know. . . yer really not winning me over with this whole "I'm not Meggie" thing. . . and. . . if it was a real "shithole" why the hell are people constantly hanging out here?. . . isn't a shithole a place where nobody wants to hang out?

A "shithole" it might be. . . at least there's lotsa love in this house. . . between friends and family, and friends that we consider family. . . but oh. . . we're all just "shitty" people anyway. . . my mom's shitty, phil's shitty, I'm shitty, sammy's shitty hell, that makes yer boyfriend shitty cuz he lives here! OH THE HORROR! OH GOD NO! AHHHHHH!!

Live how you want to live. . . that's my motto. . . but if you judge someone, you better expect to be judged. . . I don't care where you come from, if you respect me, i'll respect you. . . but if you disrespect those i love. . . don't expect me to be mr. clean. . .

I know I should be a bigger person and walk away from this. . . but it's kinda hard when someone has foot-in-mouth disease. . . or head-up-ass disease. . . ya know, the disease where ya can't get yer head outta yer ass so ya constantly talk shit all the time, and have to eat a lot of breath mints cuz no one wants to be around you when you talk cuz your breath smells like shit and they can't tell ya so they just walk away. . .

It's kinda like that. . .

SO. . . in OTHER drama-less news. . .

John from Root Mechanical called back and let me know that I should probably show up on tuesday. . . cuz their audition for another guy went kinda off yesterday cuz he had something tied up with work. . . so if he ain't around Saturday. . . Tuesday might look pretty good to me. . .

As for this weekend. . . gotta work. . . that's pretty much the plan. . . might be hangin' out with Ruben tonight for the first time in ages. . . Toussaint might join us. . . mad props to Toussaint. . . he's the true mack daddy. . . maybe Loane will take an hour break from his computer and hang out. . . at my house. . . that's right. . . my "shithole". . .

Remember kids, sometimes keeping it real can go wrong. . .
 
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I'm goin' to hell. . .   
08:47pm 20/04/2005
  For your own viewing entertainment (mine as well). . .

http://pro-state-skate.com/schiavo2.html

http://pro-state-skate.com/episodeIII.html

http://www.amandaegge.com/schiavo.htm

Have fun, and remember. . . DO THE SCHAIVO!
 
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I refuse to fly with my wings in my mouth. . .   
08:19pm 20/04/2005
 
mood: good
I'm a free thinker. . . cuz I'm free of thinking. . .

Woo.

Anyways. . . the Root Mechanical thing has been goin' alright. . . gonna have to wait for a call back probly after tomorrow. . . cuz they are trying out another drummer. . . which is cool. . . I knew going in that it was an audition/try out anyway. . . so it's not like a suprise. . . although jamming out with them has been a blast. . . and talkin' about random crap with them is fun too. . . if I'm in, cool, if I'm not. . . cool. . . it's all good. . . I've got some ideas going on. . . I still got the Wilson project if it's still on. . . that or I can just start something with Sammy. . . couple more weeks until he is back! HOLLA!

Yeah. . . other than that. . . life has just been flowin' like a colon. . . it sounds gross. . . but we couldn't think of anything that rhymes with flowin' at the current moment. . .

So yeah. . . we got a new pope. . . his name is like. . . Pope Benedict Arnold Schwarzenegger the 16th. . . which is fine by me. . . we need more muscle and governating in the popedom. . . but less of what Benedict Arnold did back during the revolutionary war. . . that dude was a traitor. . . and I hope this pope ain't one of those. . .

Anyways kids. . . I'm out like Terri Schiavo's feeding tube. . . and speaking of Schaivo. . . there's a dance going around. . . and it's caled "Do the Schaivo". . . it's like the hustle. . . only, you have to feel hungry enough to do it. . .
 
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No love. No hope.   
04:07pm 13/04/2005
 
mood: hopeful
So tomorrow is me tryin' out for Root Mechanical. . . and damn am I stoked. . . kinda nervous though. . . I haven't actually been in a metal band in some time. . . I'm not rusty at all. . . cuz I've been playin' my set everyday. . . but. . . I'm goin' in with a bunch of guys I hardly know. . . it's not like Campsite where I knew Zack and wasn't the only new guy. . . this is a whole new start. . . Wilson still hasn't called. . . I'll give him another week or so before I write it off. . . at least Sammy comes back soon. . . if he decides not to go back to school then we can sorta get something going. . .

The most helpful thing I've got going for me during the audition is the fact that Toussaint has put in a few good words for me. . . that and Root Mechanical is familiar with my drumming style and intensity cuz of the show we played together many months ago. . . and if it doesn't go well. . . there's always JStreetZine.com. . . can put in a classified ad or answer one. . .

Kinda like hunting for a new job. . . it's been odd not being in a band for the past couple weeks. . . it was kinda like after they let me go at Phillips after Christmas. . . without a job for three weeks. . . was kinda dreadful. . . the freetime was nice. . . but. . . yeah. . .

My mom's makin' lasagna for dinner. . . which is awesome. . . cuz I'm hungry. . .
 
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07:18am 12/04/2005
 
mood: good
So. . . all that livejournal riff raff of me and Casey breakin' up was a hoax. . . a facade. . . something made up to display how two people can be in a relationship when you just don't THINK about what you're doing. . .

Some people are devoid of all logic. . . I mean. . . it's like. . . there's a part of their brain that was frazzled when they were young. . . maybe dropped on the head. . . maybe it just never developed. . . but seriously. . . I don't get how you can claim that you're "mature" when you're constantly bickering through a fucking online source. . . if you REALLY were mature. . . you'd be the bigger person and. . . walk away. . . just walk away. . . but I guess there's just that whole "devoid of logic" thing. . .

Plus. . . if you constantly expose your buttons, there are people who are going to push them for jokes at your expense. . . and when you keep on blabbering. . . you shouldn't expect your buttons to stop being pushed. . .

Plus. . . you have to accept the fact that there are things you simply can not control. . . sometimes you have to accept the things you can not change. . . it's called serenity. . . and some people are devoid of that too. . . like wishing that your boyfriend will drive out to see you when you live in the city. . . and it's snowing outside like tomorrow ain't coming. . . and when he's saying that he can't control the weather, he honestly can't. . . and if you nerved his ass up to drive down there, and he slid into a ditch. . . you wouldn't have the automobile to drive and bail him out. . .

Plus. . . there's a thing called denial. . . and much like the river. . . denial has undertows. . . like livejournal posts you forget about. . . they will come back to haunt you. . . or when you deny cheating in a relationship, and it's easy to believe coming from the mouth of the person you're dating, who gave you the second chance that you didn't deserve, cuz cheating is a mortal sin. . . some countries hold a public killing of infidels. . .

Plus. . . you claim that smart people go to college. . . well, how about LeBron James. . . the basketball player. . . he jumped right from high school into the NBA. . . no college. . . yet. . . he's making money out the ass. . . as is a lot of basketball players who make that jump. . . kind of like hockey players. . . there are kids who go right from high school to the pros via the entry draft. . . they play on a minor league team. . . then rise to the ranks of the NHL. . . and they make a lot of money. . . shit, if you only attended college for a couple weeks, you still gave a college try. . . nuff said about that. . . remember, Bill Gates AND Michael Jordan never finished college, and look where they ended up. . . hell, there are high school drop outs who are making fat loads of cash. . . i think some of them are ummm. . . rock stars. . .

You used to be a sweetheart. . . but now you remind me of someone I was dating three years ago. . . and it might seem like I'm picking on you. . . but this is in all honesty. . . honesty. . . yeah. . . that's right. . . as for eavesdropping. . . it's kinda hard not to listen when you're woken up to arguements over the phone. . . it's kinda hard not to listen when someone's trying to NOT fight with you. . . but since everything is a battle with you. . . you're boyfriend is either a masochist, or has a bigger heart than you will ever see fit. . . and let me tell ya, a lot of people feel sorry for him. . . I don't though, it's what he wants. . .

Now that I've said my piece. . . I'll move on. . . I'll walk away. . . cuz it's pretty easy to do. . . it can save your life. . . and ya know what. . . it's pretty easy to look like a hardass on the internet. . . but there is a real world out there. . . real gangsta ass niggas don't need to flex nuts over the internet. . . cuz real gangsta ass niggas know they got them. . .

So go on. . . do the high school thing. . . get all yer online friends to come and read this and rip and tear into me. . . just remember the friends you've lost. . . and the friends you'll end up losing. . .

I'm out like Terri Schiavo's feeding tube. . .
 
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SARCASM! YAY! WOOHOO! UP YER ASS WITH BROKEN GLASS!   
08:00pm 07/04/2005
 
mood: WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!
So. . . I got a new drumset today. . . and. . . fuckin. . . holla. . . holla dolla bill y'all. . .

Campsite 20. . . is no more. . . it has ceased to be. . . which. . . fucking blows. . . cuz. . . there was a lot of potential to go a lotta places. . .

I'm unsure if the Wilson thing is gonna work. . . so. . . I'm gonna try out for Root Mechanical. . . they rocked when we played with them many months ago. . .

If that doesn't work out. . . there's always. . . starting a chaos-core band. . . kinda like Converge or The Chariot or Anterrabae. . . something something. . .

Everyone needs to SHAVE their eyebrows. . . cuz that's the IN thing to do. . . nuff said. . .

I can't wait to dress in drag for Halloween. . . only six more months to go. . .

I can't decide if I wanna go as Paris Hilton or Nicole Richie. . . cuz I live a simple life. . . unlike them. . .

Then again. . . I couldn't go as Paris Hilton. . . I'm not retarded enough to have one eye almost shut. . .

I hate when my foot falls asleep in the middle of the day. . . cuz that means it's gonna be up all night. . .

So. . . Willy Wonka is coming up with a new line of big ass candy bars. . . they're gonna be called BaWONKAdonks. . .

I'm thinkin' of growin a mustache too. . . and I'm really gonna let my hair grow. . . to the point. . . where I can put it in a braid. . . and let it go down past my ass. . . then I'll stop wearing deodorant. . . and need tips on how to be a "girl". . .

Wait a minute. . .

OKay. . . I waited a minute for nothing. . .

You can not plow a field in North Carolina with an elephant. . . So. . . I"m gonna dress in orange. . . deck myself out as a superfan of the Illini. . . and ride a motherfuckin' elephant through N.C.

Take that!

So my next band. . . is gonna be called. . . "When Shotguns Misfire". . . and the shirt is gonna be bodacious. .. it's gonna have stick figures with shotguns. . . and the back. . . oh. . . it's gonna be funny in some way. . .

Holla.
 
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08:00pm 07/04/2005
  Chopper Dave we got "uh oh" over. . .  
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How I wish this was an April Fool's joke. . .   
07:11am 01/04/2005
 
mood: shocked
Comedian and Actor Mitch Hedberg, 37, Dies
The Associated Press
Friday, April 1, 2005; 1:06 AM


ST. PAUL, Minn. - Mitch Hedberg, a Minnesota-born comedian who worked in nightclubs, television and film in a wide-ranging career, died in New Jersey, his family said. He was 37.

Hedberg, who struggled with drugs and alcohol, died Wednesday in a hotel room in Livingston, N.J.

Pending the medical examiner's report, the cause of death appears to be heart failure, said his mother, Mary Hedberg. She said her son was born with a heart defect and frequently felt anxious about his condition.

Mary Hedberg said speculation that her son's death was drug-related was gossip.

"We don't know that for a fact," she said, but added, "it's not a secret Mitch used drugs. Whether that played a role in his death or not, we don't know."

A hit on "The Late Show With David Letterman," on which he appeared 10 times, and "The Howard Stern Show," Hedberg once was dubbed "the next Seinfeld" by Time magazine. But TV-series fame eluded him because his unique style of mumbled one-liners didn't lend itself to the sitcom format.

Hedberg delivered absurdist, random observations in a spacy staccato. His long, dirty blond hair harkened to the image of a 1970s stoner.

Jokes about Hedberg's drug use were a staple of his act. He took a hiatus from performing for several months after a May 2003 arrest in Austin, Texas, for felony possession of heroin.

Born in St. Paul, Hedberg rose through the ranks at Minneapolis' Acme Comedy Co. and caught his big break through a Comedy Central special.

His rambling, non-sequitur style often drew comparisons to Steven Wright, but Hedberg disagreed.

"If I made potato chips and put them in a can, people would say I was ripping off Pringles," he said. "But what if I put them in a bag?"

Hedberg had two popular comedy CDs, "Strategic Grill Locations" and "Mitch All Together." He acted in the movie "Almost Famous" - smoking fake pot with Peter Frampton - and appeared on Fox's hit series "That '70s Show."

Hedberg is survived by his wife, comedian Lynn Shawcroft, his father and mother, Arne and Mary Hedberg of St. Paul, and sisters Wendy Brown of Woodbury and Angie Anderson of South St. Paul.
 
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"But there's a light on, in Chicago, and I know I should be home. . ."   
07:35am 29/03/2005
 
mood: hopeful
So I went and saw my dad on Saturday. . . kinda interesting. . . waiting for the train. . . actually talkin' to him for a bit. . . mainly about drums and bands. . . nothing else. . . could never have the same kinda bond I had with him ten years ago though. . . but nonetheless. . . Sammy and Phil were there so it kept me from lashing out. . . especially Phil and his humor. . . oh it was grand. . . anyways. . . we went to this dude named Jeff's place. . . nice nice place. . . out in Arlington Heights. . . not too far from Guitar Center. . . so I was familiar with where I was. . . anyways. . . he's got a studio in his basement. . . and about 20 guitars. . . my god. . . he had guitars out the ass (not literally). . . but anyway. . . dad was curious to hear campsite, as was jeff. . . and it was played. . .

Damn did it bump through the systems. . . they were FLOORED. . . heh. . . my dad was extremely impressed. . . proud of me. . . I was just suprised he wasn't drunk. . . but he started to drink when we were there, but we weren't staying long, neither was Jeff. . . but they loved Mind Leak. . . loved the tempo, switch ups, sound. . . yeah. . . then after Squeeze, Jeff had asked if we had a press pack. . . then went on to mention how he recently did sound at the Metro for Fall Out Boy. . . then said. . . this demo is really tight, if you can get me a press pack, I can get you guys on sometime at the Metro. . .

I cocked my head to the side and thought it was nuts. . . but then was like. . . hey, Inept (my cousin Blake's band) played there a lot. . . here's our shot. . . holla. . . so I was given his number and all that jazz. . . then he went on to show off some of his treasured guitars. . . he played a twelve string acoustic. . . one of only a hundred or so ever made. . . my god. . . it was nuts. . . he played some steve vai stuff. . . he showed us a 10000 dollar guitar. . . i shit you not. . . a custom '69 les paul. . . this guy said guitars are an expensive habit. . . I wanted to say that I know of others. . . but with dad there. . . it was kinda. . . good to bite my lip. . .

so after that we got outta there and then got me back to the car in crystal lake then i decided to go to best buy. . . i talked to chris on the way home, told him of the news. . . then at best buy, i ran into joe and zack. . . haha. . . joe said it could be dangerous to play the metro. . . i'm kinda freakin' out that it can either go extremely well or fall completely through. . . we'll just have to see how it pans out. . .

As for Easter. . . it was alright. . . i worked. . . i went to grandma's. . .watched college basketball. . . hung with my cousins. . . saw my grandparents. . . then sammy rode home with me. . . and near the end of the ride we got through huntley which kinda reminded me of hangin' with abt. . . then i blabbed about the dissipation of the group or "core" of friends I had. . . then it lead ot him opening up about stuff. . . then i got to tell him i think he's my most favorite person and he's the most admirable human being on the planet. . . and that i loved him and am really glad to have him as a brother. . . something i don't think i ever said to him face to face. . . and he just started to cry. . . it was a true kodak moment. . . yeah. . . sammy is da man. . .

Instead of going home, we went and hung out at Casey's and talked and ate cake and talked and they watched tv i played bookworm, then talked and talked and read uncle john's bathroom readers then talked some more. . . eventually we left and came back here. . . and yeah. . . the weekend was kinda cool. . .

Sammy's back at school. . . campsite will be practicin' today. . . and orgazmo is out on DVD! HOLLA!

I need sleep.
 
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Like bringing a knife to a gun fight. . .   
07:36am 25/03/2005
 
mood: aggravated
So. . . work last night. . . was fun. . . until. . . Heather came in. . . found out she was written up for being a moron. . . then came bitchfest 2005. . . good god. . . it was like working with the fucking wisdom cube. . . AHHHHHHH!. . . she just repeats her stories over and over again. . . I can see why both her marriages didn't work out. . . yet it's all the guy's fault. . . and how she would never get married again. . . ya know. . . if ya didn't repeat your stories ten thousand times, ya might still be married. . .

Anyways. . . poor Elaine. . . i was so relieved to see her this morning. . . she's a sweet old lady to work with too. . . right after Heather walked out the door. . . I let my brain loose. . . felt kinda bad to vent to Elaine but she could relate. . .

I'm really hopin' they can Heather. . . it's not like me to wish canning on anyone, but, Mare must think I'm some kinda miracle worker. . . ugh. . .

So yeah. . . it's snowing out. . . for the millionth time this year. . . and it's only March. . . it's like. . . we get a couple good days. . . god's all like "hey buddy, me and mother nature are bringin' on the bling of spring!". . . then he's like. . . "HAHAHA! SUCKERS!". . .

It's the neverending winter. . .

Anyways. . . Casey has decided to nix being friends with Kathy on an account of being lied to. . . my advice is, if you lie to your friends the sooner you won't have any. . . it's a cliche or some shit. . . but it's true. . . and I don't wanna get involved in any way, shape or form. . . if asked I'm gonna be all like "this is an A and B situation that I ain't gonna C myself into. . ."

Holla.

So I've been goin' to the nickel arcade a lot lately. . . and. . . been hooked on this racing game. . . Fast and the Furious. . . you couldn't pay me to see that fucking movie. . . Vin Diesel is one of the worst actors EVER. . . he's lumped together with that whole I-look-so-good-I-don't-need-to-act part of Hollywood. . . in fact, there's a fucking club of those people in Hollywood. . . Keanu Reeves is president, Vin Diesel is Vice President. . . there's more in the club, those two just are off the top of my head. . .

ANYWAYS. . . the game is fucking addicting. . . especially. . . when. . . you race against other people. . . and do vaults off of their cars. . . ghetto style. . . i'm talkin'. . . super fuckin' flips and shit. . . plus you get some fabulous cars to max out stats on. . . I got my Dodge Charger all super-flied. . . yeah. . . you kids should check the game out. . . you might like it. . .

So it's now officially 8 months with Casey. . . holla. . . let's make it 8 more and top my longest relationship. . . word up.

So this Heather lady. . . was talking about how Illinois is a terrible state to live in. . . and all I could think was. . . then why are you living here?. . . "you couldn't pay me to live here". . . I wanted to fire back with "well, you're kinda getting paid, to provide money for your apartment in this state. . . so technically, you are being paid to live here". . . but I didn't wanna get her rag all over me. . . so I bit my lip. . . she was ripping on me for not wanting to move out of this state. . . fuck the rest of the country yo. . . that's my whole thought. . . at least I have pride of where I grew up. . . and so what if I wanna live here. . . it's a lot better than living in Seattle where the sun only shines 3 days a year. . . or Los Angeles where the skies are so brown. . . let's go with some other choice cities. . . the bulbous metropolis of New York. . . there's always Salt Lake City. . . not to mention the wonderful ol' Florida which is inhabited by 90% old people. . . or Trey Parker and Matt Stone's (South Park) city from hell, Detroit. . . the lady is bitching because the first month she lived in Harvard there was a murder and a robbery/rape. . . ya know, shit like that can happen ANYWHERE at ANYTIME. . . kinda what Richard (the maintenance overnight dude) had said to me. . . it's true. . . as irritating as Richard is, he doesn't talk to me much, and when he does, he doesn't repeat his stories. . . ugh. . .

Ya know what. . . maybe it's just that I worked overnights by myself for an entire year to the point where I grew fond of nobody being around. . . and when I started at the Marathon on overnights, I was either workin' with Bob (who liked a lotta the same music), Mare (who I can just shoot the shit with, cuz she's my old boss/current boss), or Dan (who I can talk to about random crap). . . other than that. . . the overnight people have been just UGH. . . so maybe I got spoiled. . . then again I have to stop and think that in the next couple months I'll be in South Elgin. . . and hopefully far away from that Heather lady. . . ugh. . .

My whole take on living someplace new is that in about 6 months you're going to just get sick of it like ya did the last place ya lived in. . . if ya just learn to adapt to your surroundings and know what ya like to do for fun then maybe it won't seem so trite. . .

Then again, some people never fucking listen anyway. . . they hear, but the key word is LISTEN. . .

It's like their brain just forgets to trap the nice little quips and reasonable logic and filters it out. . . unless ya call them a name or insult them then it's world war 24980. . .

So Nick's back with Katie, Kathy's been with Mike, and I could care less. . .

For all I care you can be early or late, whatever. . .
 
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As for Ozzfest. . .   
08:28am 23/03/2005
 
mood: sleepy
A lady came into the gas station last night. . . a middle-aged lady. . . who has a kid who goes to shows every week. . . and she has mentioned how dissapointing the line-up was for it's tenth anniversary. . . she stated that Ozzfest shoulda had more bands that got big through Ozzfest in the last ten years. . . some huge acts. . . she claimed that if it were a true tenth anniversary they'd get maybe Marilyn Manson, System of a Down, Soulfly or some other bands like that. . .

Then maybe it'd be worth it to go. . . I've never been to Ozzfest. . . and the Tweeter fucking blows all sorts of bulbous ass. . . plus, the main bands I wanna see get a whopping 15 minutes to play. . . Warped Tour at least has variety. . . ya don't have to be forced to only see one band. . . if ya don't like band A, then you can go to one of the other five or six stages to see another. . . the only downfall to warped tour. . . is the time-slots can suck. . . especially when ya get two bands you really went to see playing at the same time on seperate stages. . .

People are always saying how I should go to ozzfest. . . well. . . I've never been, and never really plan to. . . tweeter security are all a bunch of assheads anyway. . .
 
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Holy freakin' tweakin' dancin' Jesus!   
08:14am 23/03/2005
  Warped Tour is lookin' to be a dandy this year. . . Dillinger Escape Plan is freakin' on it! HOLY CRAP!

Not to mention Bleeding Through, Atreyu, Avenged Sevenfold, Underoath, ZAO, Funeral For a Friend, Boys Night Out, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy. . . hell. . . even the Offspring are fuckin' playing. . . hope a few more good bands latch on. . . hope all these bands are playin' in the same city. . . that would rock. . . hard. . . core. . . har. . . har. . . har. . .
 
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